It's been a while since I've written a xanga entry...and I don't feel like doing any of my work cause I'm just a lazy bum with senioritis... :) hehehe...so it looks like i'm just going to ramble on about nothing...!
So lately, I've been struggling with this whole issue of "churches." But God, being God, loves to put these obstacles in my life, so...what "shouldn't be a problem", is a problem.
And things didn't really hit me until today, when I got an earful from 4/5 different people at ODPC, about how I'm playing in the GMC basketball tourney for Bethel. Little questions and comments like, "which church is it?" or "do you really have to go?" to "What's so good about going to Bethel?" or "There's nothing wrong with ODPC, why would you leave?" just kept running around in my head over and over again.
But my question is:
"Why do you care about what "church" I go to, when for the past month, we've been learning about stories from Acts and how to be a Witness? Does it really matter whether or not, I go to ODPC or Bethel? Shouldn't the fact that I'm going to a church and I'm learning weekly on Sunday's mean more than a location? I just don't understand why people have a "problem" with my decision on which "church" I attend, when I'm just trying to learn and grow closer to God? when I'm trying to share what I've learned at both, ODPC and Bethel?
And here's what I have to say to everyone at ODPC who have issues with my playing for Bethel...
- I'm playing basketball with Bethel, since I've committed to play for them and I'm not going to ditch the Bethel Basketball Team.
- Mainly to Jessica, what does it mean to you, if I come back and play for ODPC, when even if I come back, we're not going to be much of a "team" ? One person doesn't make a team...
- And what difference does it make for the ODPC Girl's Basketball Team, if I come back or not, when after I graduate, you're going to face the same problem next year? Are you still going to use the threat, "I'm going to go play for KCPC!" or "I want to win...and play for a team that can actually 'pass the ball'...???
- I want to play for a team that I'm going to enjoy playing for, a team I'll have fun with. A team that won't bring me stress, cause, honestly, the past four years have been very stressful for me and I don't want to go through that again.
I don't think people at ODPC have realized the change and transformation that I have experienced from my "break" at Bethel. It's quite amazing, really, how much God has taught me in the past three months.
PAUSE...I WILL FINISH THIS ENTRY WHEN I GET A CHANCE...
so...I never really got back to this entry because I lost my momentum and the flow of everything...and also cause I've been writing other entries...
for those of you, who don't know...I constantly write on this thing...but I only post about 1 out of 14ish...public. Ohh..and people shouldn't take my posts sooo seriously, because more than half the time, I'm venting what I feel at that moment. :P I don't really take the time to reread what I put up here.
(sorry...that was random....) oh...and that message ^ is for patrick han, who constantly stalks me on this thing....always. but since you're at glo retreat...looks like you won't be reading this til you get back! haha!
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